What it has become.

May Peace Be Upon You,

Great, I'm hearing those. "Tsk, Tsk" sounds in my room again. It can only mean there's a cicak around. Ohh, and its hiding. It knows its fate if I were to ever find it, It'll be dead. Haha, but I'm not that cruel also. I won't overkill it. Sometimes, I don't even kill it.

Hmm, I'm surprised myself to know how much I looked back into my past some times. Thinking about the silly little things I've done. Some, I can forgive myself for doing it. Others, well I'm always like, "Okay, and why did I do that again?". Heh, its weird. One of the things I did when I was small. Primary School, rather. Its not a sin. Its a mistake. Well, maybe not even a mistake. Its a silly action. It doesn't hurt other people but myself. Well, not me entirely but rather my eyes. Heh, I say its the "not-smartest" thing I've done through out my whole life. Its the whole reason why I am wearing spectacles right now. I'd probably wouldn't have to if I didn't did it. But, who knows. I'm not going to tell what I did either. Heh (:

I am grateful that Allah didn't give me a truly specially unrealisticly really2 good-looking looks and made me have an alright not-bad look XD. Huhu, just kiding. Alhamdulillah, people get jealous of good-looking people. Especially in relationships. Glad I don't have to deal with those problems. (:

I guess that's what they say, not everything you get is a blessing. Sometimes, problems comes along with it. All of that, just to test how patient and well you handle the little tests given from god.

Hmmm, let's all remember: "Perbuatan yang baik, tidak semestinya betul".

1. What am I searching for?

Peace, I want to have peace in my heart. That is what I want. I'm sure others too.

2. What am I afraid of?

I'm afraid that the light shone to me from Allah that is still showing me the right path to disappear and not return.

I'm far from being a good person. Sometimes, when I see my friend who doesn't take religious classes but is very enthusiastic towards the religions and practicing its deeds, I'll feel ashamed because in my eyes, he is better than me. His niat, his intentions are pure. That's why I do respect him.

My stomach hurts these days. Well, I used to do morning exercises and work out a little at home but I've gone lazy. And I've eat alot as well. Hmm, so I've started to do morning stretches and exercises back but because of that I get muscle aches since I've not done them too long. Will continue this good morning habit again. Shall exercise. Work out? Hmm, that's a different story. A little muscles is nice but most of the guys I know who has muscles tend to show off their muscles and being proud about it. Its good that they have confidence but I don't know. Mucles are not important, being healthy is. (:

Or maybe, I'm just lazy XD.